On my daily walk the other day, I heard...long before I saw...a murder of crows harassing a hawk. (Yes, I looked that up. That is what you call them. Word lesson for today completed.)
Oh, they were really giving it to him--circling round and round, cawing away. He gave them a couple of shrill cries in return, but they were really dominating.
As I watched the exchange, I realized that I could see myself in that scene. And sometimes I am the crows...and sometimes I am the hawk.
I can be a fuss-er. I sometimes get focused on something and worry it to pieces. Whether it is finances, or boy behavior, or the cleanliness of my house (or lack thereof), I get hold of an idea and won't let go. Like the crows, I fuss and fume. I try to bully the ideas, pushing and shoving them into what I think they should look like. I continue the harassment, regardless of the facts, and God's plan...seeing threats where there probably aren't any. Sometimes I even find my own "murder" to fuss with me.
Sometimes, however, in my better moments, I'd like to think I am the hawk.
Sometimes I doggedly maintain my God-directed course, taking the attacks as they come, and maintaining my place in the sky, like this hawk was. I don't see the harassment and obstacles--whatever form they may take--but stay the course. When the opportunity presents itself, I, like the hawk, cry out my side of the story, but from a position of calm statement, not from a position of stressed excitement. This hawk calmly held his position, and so do I--or at least I try.
So why am I not able to be more hawk-like all the time? Why do I take that drift toward the stressful group-think of a murder of crows, seeing threats everywhere, real and imagined?
Usually it is because I have taken my eyes off the Ruler of the Skies...if I may be so bold as to give Him a name like that.
I get freaked out and stirred up when I don't spend enough time with the Lord...in prayer, reading His Word, seeing things from His perspective.
I also get in a tizzy when I choose to be around the murder instead of alone with the Lord. Oh, I am not discounting the value of good friends...not by any means! But we all need to be careful of miserable comforters. Time alone with the Lord can get me soaring again instead of squawking.
May I find those moments today!
Though youths grow weary and tired, and vigorous young men stumble badly, yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary. -- Isaiah 40:31-32 (NASB)